Did Not Go According to Plans!

At this moment in my life, I thought I would had accomplished a lot of things. Before graduating high school I had my life planned out for success. I was going to attend college and major in journalism. Soon after I would live in New York and pursue my dream of becoming an editor of some high end fashion magazine.

The thought of going to college and pursuing my dream at the age of 18, thrilled me. Graduation was just around the corner. Sure, I had my mind made up. I was ready for the next step! I had applied for college and basically had everything ready. So graduation came, I was ready to walk the stage and kiss high school farewell.

Now at the age of 22, I am nowhere near those dreams and plans I had. I did start college, but my plans had changed. I no longer was going to major in Journalism, but Sociology. When I first even consider majoring in Sociology I was apprehensive and had no clue of what Sociology was. I began my research. Soon after I found out it would also lead me into a career I wanted.

I later began college and prepared myself for what would come next. It wasn’t until a year and half through college that I realized I wasn’t really doing something I wanted. I had so many plans, but never really made my mind up.

I was not sure if whether my loss in interest had to do with being uncertain of what I wanted at the time or just fear; fear of failure. Being the first in your family graduating from high school and going off to college is not easy. All eyes are on you and you do your best to make everyone proud. I remember staying up late studying, doing homework, and reading books. It was not easy. Sure I was not a straight A student, but the few A’s I got were well earned.

My plans did not go according to what I had in mind, but that does not mean I do not have a chance at making something happen. At the moment I am not in school or employed. This is a huge setback, but it will not stop me. Many see me as a disappointment, but my life is not over yet. I have time to get back on track and get thing done. I know it’s going to take some time, in the end it will all be well worth the struggle!